Although disrupted a few times, I sleep from 10:00pm until 6:07am, this morning. I am trying for as much sleep as my body will allow and I think I am only awoke to the sounds of the door opening at the end of the hall for the morning standing count. My head feels like it has let out some pressure and when I look at myself in the mirror I have dark circles under my eyes. Why would eight hours of sleep cause circles but four wouldn't? Everything is so backwards.

Tablet services are still down. Sleep disruption by the guards keeps inmates on night owl hours. I am getting sleep, broken up into pieces, but I can and do.

Tablet services including phones have bene down since about 9:30pm on the 19th. I managed a few more hours of sleep yesterday but not nearly what I hoped for. Perhaps six hours total?

The guards wake most of us up at 2:00am by yelling and banging on a door of someone sleeping the sensible way around on the bed. Then their keys rattle continuously for 14 minutes which I later learn was for the supervisor doing inventory. A process that does not require keys to be out of their pocket. You may think it is not a big deal but it is basically like taking a pillow case containing a drawers worth of silverware and bouncing it on your thigh. It is highly disruptive to your ability to sleep. I end up complaining at 2:43am since the crashing keys are still occurring. The sleep disruption is intentional. It could not not be. At 8:15am, I am driven to the hospital in La Crosse for trigger point injections in my back. Within two hours of being poked with medication six times along my spine, the feeling of being constantly elbowed in my back goes away. I feel as though I have had a golf ball or baseball removed from my spine. Although I fall asleep right after 9:30pm standing count, I am awoken at 1:30am September 20, 2024 by two inmates having "date night." One is excited about a rent-to-own house he had before he got locked up. The result of waking guys up in the middle of the night is that guys will be awake to get happy as crackheads over crackhead ideas. Both of the two loudmouths have years to go on their prison sentences but today, in the middle of the night is the time to get excited about a home that is now most likely offered to someone else by the same shady "ownership" scheme. I probably should have wrote about my dream right away. It was a decent four hours of sleep and when these idiots shut up then I will try for more. Sleep!

At about 9:12am, I am laying with my head toward the wall and not toward the tiny table. It allows me to prop my pillow up to read. The guard raps on my door to which I respond "What is it?" but she just walked away without responding. No inquiry to my well-being, as though that is the reason for her being disruptive. No testimony by me to indicate I am okay for her to eliminate that possibility. I would say most people who aren't okay can provide audible response. I  hit the intercom button and asked the sergeant but she could not provide an answer about the guards behavior since my window is not obstructed. It is evident there must be a "if you see feet then harass" policy. The fiction it concerns the well being of an inmate is an absurd excuse to harass inmates.

​Do you want to know what I was reading and thinking about? The courts employ a forfeiture rule to deprive unknowing defendants of their rights to constitutional protections supposedly assured to them by not only the Federal and State Constitutions, but also the oaths that lawyers, prosecutors, and judges promise to follow. When the defendants rights are violated or allowed to be violated, the court exempts the behavior/negligence by saying the defendant forfeited their right. I don't like it. The system is only as "good" as people who have all the incentive to lie. And when they lie then the prison system will do what it can to minimize your ability to recover from the damages of their scheme by limiting access to resources so severely it would take a decade just to review the relevant information  to compose any argument. I definitely do not see the system as impartial. I don't see it as coincidence that I have the points to go to a medium security prison but am required to stay under these restrictions at a maximum security prison for three years which is the same as the statute of limitation to bring lawsuits. 

I saw that some 11 year old boy got in trouble for making bogus threats to his school, or maybe to multiple schools, and that the local sheriff was on the news bragging about making the child do "the perp walk." It made me think of being taken to the hole at Dodge, where all the guards came out to watch me get "perp walked" down the main corridor. Then I was made to strip naked in front of numerous guards who eagerly oggled my junk. Not only do I see that people in positions of authority enjoy using their authority to abuse people, I also see this bizarre indoctrination to convince people that what they do is justified. I don't expect the 11 year old knew how serious his actions may have been, but attempting to traumatize a child does not make someone honorable. Was the boy so opposed to reasoned discussion or is it just easiest to control people with fear? I feel that... two wrongs don't make anything right.

More time talking to my boys. I don't want to really expound on the happiness and sadness of finally getting to converse with them after four years. I wish my daughter was able to talk to me too.

My boys are visiting my family so I use every reasonable opportunity to call and talk to them.

It's Friday the 13th and I am stuck in a building filled with the unluckiest men in Wisconsin. The nightly harassment by the guards keeps guys, who had lived peaceably for almost a year, hostile and routinely threatening each other. Some inmates adopt schemes to stay awake at night and sleep during the day. It seems to be a pleasant joke for the guards since fewer inmates bother with recreation or meals if they are pressured to stay awake at night, all night. Two guys who were brought here on the same bus ride and who have played basketball together get in a fight in the rec yard. It was just three or four punches. What was more troublesome to me was that while the two were yelling at each other before the fight, one of the guards was taunting them by saying "punch him!" I feel like the guards taunting almost forced them to fight for sake of their pride. I see it as predatory harassment on a group of people that have statistically exhibited poor coping skills. So far the "safety" policy has only helped increase violence. 

I found a lot of pictures of my kids in the discovery material. Amor vincit omnia.