July 20, 2024

I had the opportunity to look at the discovery material briefly this morning. An hour is all they allow and the computer took almost forty minutes to load a cell phone extraction. I got to view some pictures I had taken of my kids and I don't know how to sort my feelings about how they do not look the same and I still dream about them as they were four years ago. Yes, I cried, and heavy when I got back to the "privacy" of my cell. 

The state-issued tablet has a slow and awkward version of law library access which I have been using to read about cases with hopes of finding the best verbiage to express my own arguments. It annoys me that they call assertions facts and even call obvious non-truths "false facts." It is such a liars game where even blatant lies must be referred to as fact? Everything I stumble through reassures me greatly, as long as I get an honest judge. Against my skepticism I remain optimistic. My head obsesses about them taking from me something they cannot replace for their convenience and gratification. Oaths do not assure honesty and the system should require more to be called justice.