July 31, 2024

It's national avocado day? How is that not at least once per week for three months of the year? I am confident I have reviewed everything connected to this case I believe offers the legal analysis and authority to bring me home. I speak with my attorney tomorrow and, unless I am mistaken, can see the road to hugging my kids before the holidays. I have read and re-read the case, and every time I do I struggle to keep focus as the wisdom and law in the case spark so many thoughts about the trials I experienced. Now if we can just find an honest judge...? Then the Phoenix will rise from the ashes. My mind continues to try to make sense of this whole prison experience. One of the inmates who collars in the vent to other inmates was saying there is an inmate on a different range who is upset that Jeepers creepers has taken an interest in one of the guys across from me. There are rumors of a lot of tough talk of speculation of the other guy "snaking" (sucker punch) the guy on the same unit as me, if he can find the opportunity. Allegedly, the inmate on the other unit jerks off on the window on his cell door for Jeepers when she comes around. She supposedly always comes by with the medication cart and is loud enough to signal to the inmate who then stands on his chair so he can get himself in front of the window. Then she will stand there and give him a chance to do his thing. Well, she used to until she took an interest in the new guy across from me. Another inmate claims to have walked passed the exact same situation between Jeepers and a different inmate about three years ago. I am not inclined to believe it because these guys love to lie and exaggerate, although I have witnessed her own strained interest so it does invite the possibility. I suppose, to over-simplify my impressions of prison; there are literal jerk offs inside the cells, the figurative jerk offs outside the cells, and the whole thing should be called the penile system instead of penal system. The window peeking weirdos excel at their job for "the security of the institution." WSPF should stand for Window Stalking Pervert Facility. Most staff are okay and exhibit appropriate levels of displeasure for having to be at work. Whether its the people who don't enjoy their job, or the ones who do for the wrong reasons, or the inmates whose familiarities and hopes are maintained as complete disenfranchisement to societal ideals, none of this is a positive social interaction or experience. The prison has this garden club program where a group of women have inmates plant some vegetables in plastic bins. The inmates do not talk about growing food or the lessons they are supposed to be imprinted with by the experience. They talk about which woman's ass looks the best. And they argue about it for hours. Not once have I heard an inmate expound on how watching a bean plant grow was going to stop him from doing drugs or being violent upon release. Actually, the closer they get to release, the more they talk about drug use and being violent. To punish is to cause to suffer or inflict penalty. I don't see punishment as being temporarily proximate enough to be relevant and theorize punishment should be abandoned as a primary interest in the justice system. Not altogether absent, but if/when it is used, it needs to serve a greater purpose. Rehabilitation and rehabituation are great theories but, although old dogs learn new tricks, they don't unlearn the old tricks, and new tricks come much slower with old age. I comtemplate a lot about how health and safety should be the highest priority with productivity being the next. If these people are ever to function in society again, then they should at least be able to function. And if they are never going back to society, to what victory is it for them to be deprived of a version of life that has happiness safely apart from the freedoms of the rest of the peaceful society? In a manner that enables them to provide for themselves and, perhaps, family they are now separated from? Two wrongs don't make right. Make right. We need a people system and not a peeple system? I am going to have to come up with a slogan to help inspire reformation. Education and occupation. Learn and work. Needs more of those elements. More of those ingredients make better people cookies. And who doesn't love cookies?

​Oh, also my back "let go" this morning too. I would be chasing my kids out of bed early to make most of the day if I was home. Maybe get to the beach by the golden hour of perfect light. It is warm enough for that to be a great start to a day.