December 22, 2023

Ready for more unrevised rambling? A "trustee" (inmate worker) was convicted of ambushing and raping women in a cemetery. Younger and smaller inmates (people) tend to "look up to" the older and larger inmates (people). One of the young guys on the unit begins exploring the same sort of considerations or fantasies for himself. He explains in detail how he would ambush the only example of women we get to see; female guards (there are nurses too if you can be swindled out of $7.50 to go see one). His details include waiting outside the prison at shift change, catching her at a gas station or following her home which he supposes proximate to Boscobel, and "putting her in the trunk." Skipping the specific sex acts, she ends up pregnant in his fantasy. As a trustee, the cemetery rapist passes through the hallway most days. It seems to initiate the fantasies of the young inmate who repeatedly expounds his emulation. I told him I was disgusted with him and that he should shut the fuck up. 

Prison is an environment where those sorts of stories are usually met with someone's interest and approval. It is these sorts of interactions that saturate inmates time together of story telling and exaggerations to provide the interest, excitement and approval of their peers. Prison seems like the bet way to assure future criminality of impressionable minds. Prison experience assumes the burdens on society will be greater in the future by destroying the future prospects of inmates and limiting the positive sanctions inmates experience to gross malvictories of the desperate.

I set up my radio and listen to "The Shepherd" on NPR. It is a Christmas story they have adopted as tradition for the last 44 years.