October 16, 2023

Crossy Word level 585 is journal with the only other word to be crossed with it being lunar. I dreamt I was telling people at work that I enjoyed my job and wished I could get more hours. Perhaps my body telling me it is desirous of more physical therapy exercises. I am awake before 3:00am with less than three hours of sleep and can feel the tension in my back pulling. It usually takes about 12 hours to start constricting me like a giant invisible python. Well, not giant. But for sure, invisible. It doesn't matter how much stretching I do, it won't stop whats coming.

Another slice of a cold cut ham last night. It wasn't as foul as the day before but the smell has me now nauseous at the smell of the other ham too. It at least looks much more likely meat. It even has some black pepper on the top to help cover up its questionable flavor. I eat the pear, carrots, and potato chips it came with. I won't starve, but I will be hungry and won't feel well. The meal plan is a 4 week cycle which does not whatsoever reflect eating for my blood type. You don't need to read the whole book. There are plenty of summaries on the internet. The majority of people cannot process dairy and milk is provided as the solution (all pun intended) for protein, calcium, and vitamins A&D as mixed in. I don't understand how the meal plan can be designed around and what most people cannot eat. It forces people to spend money on commissary which they also collect a percent, I heard. Although I can process milk and dairy, my body doesn't enjoy it. I also heard it is an inflammatory and may make symptoms worse. No milk after physical therapy? The protein powder has not been an issue for me. I used to get tubs of Greek Gods Black Cherry Yogurt and mix in protein powder. I was really fit back then. I took a Vitamin D supplement in jail for a bit and it would spike my headache the way milk does and I wonder if it isn't actually an issue with the vitamins they mix in. Jail decided a pill was adequate substitute for sunshine. Does anyone else think that is insane? Bizarre artificialities that seem like some derivative of a Doctor Liebig who theorized that a diet of the required nutrients was all that was required to sustain life but in practice it fails. You cannot live on multivitamins. Milk is not sunshine no matter how much Vitamin D you add. Go outside and play!

​Outside at rec my thumbnail shattered on the basketball. When I was being malnutritioned in Kenosha, my nails got thin and wavy and developed little pin hole voids. The last of that deformation is almost grown out now, but not quite. About a quarter centimeter left. That's where the nail broke; the ridge line between the deformed growth and the regular thickness that my body could now create when I got to the prison diet. I might complain about how gross it is sometimes but it has been much better than jail. I clipped my nails way short and the rest of the malformed nail should grow out in perhaps a month or so. Broken over the nail bed hurts but the guards brought me a bandaid. I will try to hold it steady. Grilled cheese and tomato soup. My body loves vinegar and oil noodle salad, today. It had peas, celery, green beans, and olives. The peas and beans were probably leftovers but lunch today was tasty.