September 29, 2023

I call my daughter today about 2:30pm. She is with a woman from some "CSS," community services agency. She was picked up from school by this lady and is "just hanging out." I want that job! Paid to hang out with my daughter? Perfect job for me. Our daughters only mother-daughter connection is the vilification of me, even when it is not and could not possibly be the truth. They accused me of manipulating my daughter and they could not be more wrong. When all indications clearly show it is her mothers actions and interests. It's so sick and twisted, and selfish. Even worse, I cannot just request a recording of the call to ask anyone for real help for her. Every authority so full of the fantasies of the Disney, I mean District Attorneys office that they are blind to reality. Who doesn't acknowledge the awesome office theory?

I fell asleep before the 9:30pm standing count for about twenty minutes. I didn't sleep at all last night. Not one wink. I am awoken for the count by the guard having turned my light on, and he is yelling and pounding on my door. Yes, I haven't slept in days. Just to stand me up to count me? If this was effective for anything but the ego of the guards that perpetuate the policy I would be shocked. Recidivism rate? Maybe if penological interests weren't essentially petty inconveniences and bullying then something positive and constructive could be accomplished.